Chapter 5: uncharacteristic
By 1250 hours, Seth and I have already clocked out of our Group Building, walking along the path that'll bring us out. There's nothing to say, nothing to do, just walk. And this is time with my own thoughts as well. I don't say anything about Dayn, maybe because I don't know what to think. We're both confused about our feelings concerning her, coupled together with an unease that builds up over Recoloring. If we talk, we'll just muddle each other even more. At least, that's my reason for keeping silent. Seth doesn't speak either, or try one of his silly ways to pull me out of silence, which is gratefully noted by me.
But of course, I don't say thank you.
We continue in this way for a long time, exiting our Sector, the Guard's jerky nod and irritated hand waving, eager to see us off, as is appropriate for such a Guard to feel. I look at his beady eyes, repulsively fat neck, mousy moustache, and I resist cringing at the image. Yet, there's this nagging feeling that grabs hold of my thoughts. We're going to change Sectors today.
Changing Sectors...we'd already said our solemn, quiet goodbyes to Rade-Kai, Yuno-Kai and Jero-Kai, of which, only the foremost acknowledged with a sigh and a brief wave. In this same way, I have the urge to say something, say a goodbye, thank him, say /anything/ really, before I never see him again.
I've never been a master of my emotions. As I retrieve my KeyCard, I motion for Seth to move off first. He raises his eyebrow. Does he know I'm about to do something...stupid?
That's the thing really. I /know/ it's stupid. It's all these /nothing/ things, all these /nothing/ thinking that keeps me where I am. Not topping classes or Running, but not at the bottom either. Simply submerged in the inescapable hell of mediocrity.. As Dayn would say, in that coolly apathetic, impassive voice, my utter "average-ness", my total concern for /nothing/ things like /feelings/ that will get me killed soon. Already, I've declined her offers of Suppressing Pills. I make those same excuses that it doesn't affect my Academics, it doesn't hinder my Running. Yet, I know, deep in that hard knot of a heart that's slowly coming loose, unraveling fast, it does. It affects everything, and I can't help it.
"Lia-Kreul. Please remove yourself from this place. You are holding up the line." An arm, fingers grasping my shoulder, tries to push me onwards. As it retreats, I give in to impulsivity and grab it. I open my mouth to say something impactful, something that will ingrain itself into his mind, something that he'll remember years later with a smile. Yet, like most things once I become pressured to do them, it comes out pathetic and small.
"Uhh...Thanks."
I snatch my hand away, feeling the hard stares of the few Olympians behind me. I rebuke myself for playing the fool. Pocketing my KeyCard, and keeping my hand in my pocket, for I have nothing to do with it, I walk away, fingers still tingling. His arm, the Guard's arm, was freezing. Even more so than the freakish weather that plagues Olympus that Poseidon failed to forecast. Almost...inhuman. Then I look down at my Green forearm, see that revolving tattoo around my wrist with that little miniature Runner Running laps on it, my personalized identification mark. I feel my Meta-Pill induced racing heart rate. I think of the enhancements that await me after Recoloring, at the Refitting part of the procedure. None of us are human, if we take the definition that was trumped up by the people from Down There.
"Spacing out again? Your 'musings'" punctuated by his green fingers curling and uncurling in imaginary quotation marks. "will get us late." he hesitates at the insult, but decides with a smile and twinkling eyes, to go ahead with it. "Latie."
I grit my teeth. My fist is raised faster than ever, but he's too fast. When it's our arms against our legs, it isn't hard to see which would win. In minutes, he twists away and makes a break for it. I let go the anger but can't seem to resist the challenge he soundlessly puts forth to me.
"Seth-Krono!"
I feel my veins pump faster and the adrenaline kicks in. Unconsciously, I pop a Meta-PIl and gulp some Vit-Drink, which clears my mind till it doesn't have a trace of thought left. I give in to my feet's overwhelming urge to /move already!/ The exhiliration of Running, coupled together with my pulse drumming in my ears to match my feet, makes me smile, as I set off after him.
I'll beat him at his own game.
After ten or so blocks, the effects of the Meta-Pill dies down. We both slow to a Jog, and then a Walk. I flash him a slight grin.
"I'll get you next time." I try my best to look menacing.
"Waiting for it." He quips immediately. I wave away his complacency. That was a short-distance run; a few more blocks and he would have been snuffed of energy for sure.
The gargantuan hulk of the Recoloring Building stands formidably in front of us, grey interspersed with windows and Olympians standing at them.
We glimpse Purples with their white lab coats pushing their way through the crowds of Olympians pushing, jostling. There are Yellows, supervising belligerent Reds and restless Blues. Over at a few windows, Greens stand, looking out wistfully, but not seeing any of the drab scenery. Some tap the windows. Some talk with friends. Or what they call friends. Some wring their hands with the same nervousness that manifests itself in throbbing hearts that beat faster, louder, almost beating out of your chest. The same thing that I'm experiencing now.
"Hey Lia. You're not..." eyes narrow in suspicion. "Nervous are you?"
I give him a glare, pushing away my feelings.
"What's there to be nervous about?" I fake, the lies feel bitter on my tongue. "It's /nothing/, just Recoloring... It's not like...as if..."
I trail off and hang my head. I /am/ nervous, every cell of my body screams it out loud. I concede defeat and mutter, hating myself every second for succumbing.
"Not like you're not."
He laughs, strangely light-hearted in such a time. It makes me feel all the worst. "'Course I'm nervous! But I don't try to hide it. There's no need to be afraid of saying it."
"I wasn't trying to cover up. I was just saying-" My hasty, defensive words are immediately cut off by the swinging doors of the Treatment Centre abruptly opening into our faces. There's a squeak of trainers on the glaringly white floors. I stop, but it's not because that's the first pair of trainers I've heard today. In fact, it's not the trainers themselves.
It's the way they squeak on the ground, that too-clean trainers on a too-clean ground. It's these things that I concern myself with, the tiny things that define a person as much as big things like fingerprints or DNA from locks of hair.
I don't need to listen hard to visualize the shoes. Red ones, the type with the soft soles of treesap rubber, the ones that add a little spring to your step. There are most certainly 3 stripes near the heel, white fabrics, the laces are in bows that are double-knotted so they don't come out even under extreme conditions. The pressure on the ground is happy (steps that are quick and light and many), not angry (when the steps are slow, menacingly heavy and few for added impact). This strikes me as odd, especially after what went down this morning. The shoes stop in front of me. Looking up from my gaze at the ground, I can only confirm my inference based on my observations.
Dayn-Kreul. With her measured steps and slow walk. With her hair straight and pulled back, with not a lock out of place. With her KeyCard stashed next to matching pill bottles of red and blue, with her tattoo on her wrist revolving with her pulse, the interlocking criss-crossing pattern of Jumpers. All this is pretty regular. Except for two things.
She has a smile, to any passing Olympian, a refreshing change from the habitual frown, a grin was such a blessing if it came from one such as her. Yet, I've watched Dayn long enough, with awed and fearful attentiveness, that I can see the corner of her smile turning downwards. Her eyes flash at their cores, almost invisible to anyone not looking, like warning signals, those black irises laced with colour that dances a dance I don't know if I want to see. To anyone else, nothing's the matter. But looking at her, eyes ablaze, mouth forming a deceptive smile-snarl, I'm instantly scared of her.
As she comes up close to me, she reaches out one hand to grasp my faintly shivering one. She turns her haunting grin-grimace to Seth as well, addressing us with a voice that crackles like wind playing with dead leaves, hoarse and broken, yet clear and falsely cheery, as though something that made her Dayn, /the/ Infamous Rebel, had snapped and died away.
"Hello Friends."
We both flinch at the words. They cut as badly as sharp knives and glass bits. We can't find the similarities between the friend (we thought) we knew and this one. Are they even the same person? I shake my head from side to side, slowly.
“What are you scared of Lia? There is nothing that isn't good, good, GOOD around here. Don't you see?”
I start breathing harder. Something's broken in her. She's flipped, I try to tell myself, insane. I need some form of explanation for this...madness. But I cast around and find nothing else to pin it on but her.
A shaky breath is taken as her other hand takes Seth's. Lacking the courage to meet her burning, yet hollow eyes, we glance down only to see...
Yellow pigment. Invading her body, passing through it, the chemicals fusing with the beads under her skin, rapidly changing her Green-coloured skin to its Yellow, prestigious, glorious to some, new look. Looking at this Spectral version of our friend (I stop to think about the word for a moment.), with her clammy hands, spooky voice, ghostly eyes, I have the strangest thought.
Her Recoloring makes it look like she's been overtaken by a fast-acting parasite. Something that's taken her over, that's taking her over. And I can't stop it.
I've never felt so helpless in my life.
“Come friends! You were almost late! I was so worried! What kept you? I hope you didn't mind that I applied for an earlier timeslot. I just couldn't wait!”
The ghostly voice continues as her cold and inexplicably strong arms start to pull us towards doors, that are swinging to an ominous tandem, the doors that lead to the Treatment Centre
If it's not the tone that gets me, it's the words themselves. The tone, already, irks me. Her voice grates and scratched at her throat with metallic claws. Yet it's high-pitched and awfully cheery with tinny laughter and that horrible smile that stretches from cheek to cheek and doesn't fade away.
Even worse than that, what she used to pass of as /nothing/ speak, the lingo of the /other/ Jumper Kreuls, with their redundant giggles and overdone hand gestures that /used/ to make her flick her head, crinkle her nose, close her eyes and walk just that little bit faster to be rid of them, what she used to call "degrading", "irrelevent", "stupid" evem, seemed to be her choice of words today.
As if her powerful language of stares and tiny gestures and sweeping hair and short, cutting remarks I used to work a whole day to hear, seemed to collapse into the mindless vocabulary of just /another/ Kreul. She used to be unique and aloof, now, as if her facade had finally given way from the pressure Olympus exerted on her to /keep her down/, smashed to smithereens, she had fallen into the "commoners" ranks of mediocrity and facelessness.
She had become like me.
The Dayn I had known, the one I respected, would have slipped in at the last minute, or maybe even not showed up today, and instead snuck in after hours, stolen a syringe from the spares cabinet in the Recoloring Station and injected herself. Not to mention crushing it under her heel as she left, so the Whitie Cleaners would have extra trouble cleaning it up.
The Dayn I had known would have clapped, with her mouth a wry, victorious grin, at our tardiness. She wouldn't have cared if we didn't come, she might even applaud us more if we didn't. She would have acknowledged our bravado and our defiance with a curt nod that would mean the world to me.
The Dayn I had known wouldn't have cared if we minded or not. If she wanted to do something, even Jace-Kai or Faern-Kai could stop her. No one in Olympus, save her Coach Sai-Kai, mattered to her, so what were two Green Runners who were hardly of any status or worth much attention.
The Dayn I had known, was painfully different from this one.
I have half the mind to grab her and shake her shoulders forcefully. I could see my hands over her shoulders, almost crushing them with effort, and shaking her violently, her head lolling back and front, and my furious words, the ones that would never come from my mouth to her, would echo in the hallways and in somewhere deep in her heart, where the past-Dayn still resided in. I am sure this won't last. She'd come to her senses, out of this freakish trance soon. I hope.
With her insistent hands pulling us, we make it across the hallway just as Aeon sounded the bell for 1300 hours.
“Right on time!” She exclaims, with cheer and gaiety that doesn't quite reach her eyes. Her arms let go of ours thankfully, but only to push open the swinging doors with a bang of impulsive joy. Yet that “joy” seems fake and dead.
“Go along! I'll wait outside now. We'll have so much to do, now that we're going to be Yellows! Kais! Remember what you said Lia? This is it!” I start, Dayn remembers what I say? I don't know whether to feel flattered or to question her sanity further. “Now get in there and get that /disgusting/ Green out of your system,” For a moment, I shoot a look at her bare forearms. Completely Yellow now. Her Green's all out of her system. “And get changed for the better!”
With a single shove, Seth and I stumble backwards into the Treatment Area overwhelmed by her power. We do not even get the time to share a scared glance before we hear the sound of a throat being cleared, somewhat inexpertly.
We turn and see a scientist, white labcoat making him almost invisible in the white room, with two fluorescent lights casting a blinding light over them. Another, more severe-looking scientist, smiles ethereally at us. Everything's bright and rearing to begin. I feel my mind scream, “This is it!” Yet that nagging little voice wonders if it's all that amazing as I've fantasized it to be. “An anticlimax.” It argues. Any further debate is cut off as the scientists remove a syringe each, from a cupboard that's camouflaged into the wall behind it, the tube filled with gleaming Yellow chemicals and crystal-like agents. Their Purple thumbs squeeze the plunger, allowing a single drop to escape in their eagerness. Their smiles stretch and stretch, more inhuman every second.
“Shall we begin?”



